I was talking to a co-worker the other day about this Blog and why it is so important a subject to me. The question was asked “why focus on the adults point of view of bullying?” It’s a good question. To me, a lot of it has to do with the fact that, as adults, we seem to be good at compartmentalizing bad experiences so they hide in our mind. A child will tell you of their experiences, but as adults, we seem to not want to discuss our own incidences and bury them in our memories.
But, I don’t think they ever are buried. We just don’t talk about them. But they are there. I test this theory with those I talk to by asking them to tell me the first and last name of their best friends in elementary school. Most people can do that. Now, if they admit to being bullied, I ask them for the first and last name of the bullies. They can do this also, because, I theorize, that that person is as ingrained in their memories as their best friends. That, to me, is somewhat frightening how big a role these bullies play in our lives.
So, again, why the adult perspective. Because one of the things I think is that adults, by compartmentalizing these moments, don’t allow themselves to accept and move on. To learn from them and, by sharing them, learn that they are not alone and have never been alone. But also, if we as adults now have the understanding of rationalizing what happened, we can help the children learn to cope better and know they are not alone and remind ourselves of the perspective of children going through bullying.
That is why, almost selfishly, I am writing this blog as part of a cathartic experience to exorcise these bullies from my past who have faces and names I still know and think about every so often. I actually hope to see them again, when I make this documentary to get their perspectives on what happened and how they felt. Wouldn’t that be interesting.